Yes

NTiny/John:I can see you want my words.. I'm not ignoring you, I'm simply not thinking at a level I have words.I can see my acknowledgement of you, brief as it is, is not enough for you...it hurt just as much when you initially did it to me.I gave you my trust,my LOYALTY, even chose to sequester myself away from people in an effort not to be another Lynne... so I was blindsided when the accusation of an affair flew from your lips in a temper. Heaven forbid I should be believed for speaking truth that defied your perception. I set boundaries after attempting various activities several times with you. I asked, and asked again, until I begged for a cessation... I was ignored until I was blind with panic, my reactions on the level of a wounded animal. Only then did an inkling of concern enter your being.I can feel the negativity you wear like an invisible suit of thorny armor slicing and repelling me every time I have approached. I morbidly continued to gouge myself on it and seek your presence; not because I craved the pain myself, but rather feeling that no one should be left in such spaces alone+hurting. Any time I was trapped in those same dark places, I was thrown a bottle of pills/a whiskey/a lantern; but never received the one thing I needed most.. someone who'd been there (you) to guide me back to the light.I'll maintain the boundaries you demand be respected alright...when unicorns rollerskate through hell serving burgers+ shakes.Keep your emotional razorblades, your size matters crusade and irrational tirades..(hey,that rhymes!)..my loyalty has morphed into preservation, my trust is now watchfulness, and what was freely given and an accomplishment is now an onerous chore to be survived as I can no longer heal your damages without either being replenished or suicidal. I fought too hard too many times for LIFE to be killed in YOUR **** spiral with wounds you refuse to lance and drain of poison.