Thinking through what happened

Once in the shower, I couldn't help but walk through events of the party in my mind. {if blowjob=false} {if followed=false} It was clear that trying to debate Brandon was a futile endeavor. All I had achieved was to rouse my own anger and provide him with entertainment. Starting today, I would have no more contact with the douchebag! Satisfied with my decision I instead focused on my plans with Jamie this weekend.{else} Following him up those stairs had been a mistake. It had given him the wrong impression of my intentions. Closing my eyes, I couldn't help but image the sight of his erect member just a few feet in front of me. It shouldn't be possible to have a cock that beautiful. Confronted with it I had instinctively ran away. I had a horrible feeling that if I hadn't escaped when I did, I might have done something truly irredeemable. At least I could understand how Brandon could be so cocky, he probably had women throwing themselves at him with a dick like that.

Thinking about it I could feel a throbbing heat from my groin. {if third_party_sex=true}My activities with Jamie last night had not helped to satiate the leftover arousal from my encounter with Brandon's dick.{endif} Lost in thought my hands started to wander, one found an erect nipple, the other my aching pussy. As I started stroking myself, erotic images came unbidden to my mind. I was back in that room, Brandon sitting exposed in front of me, but this time I didn't run. Kneeling in front of him, I took him into my mouth and started sucking. In my imagination I could take him flawlessly deep in my throat, bobbing up and down as he groaned. I continued my ministrations as I felt my orgasm building. My tongue hanging out, I imagined him cumming large quantities of cum down my throat, and as I did my entire body convulsed with pleasure. My knees gave out underneath me and I ended up sitting on the floor in the shower panting and relishing in the afterglow.

After a few minutes I got back to my feet, feelings of guilt suddenly dominating my mind. Turning the water completely cold I tried to wash away the shame, to no avail.{endif} {else} Viewing them calmly with some distance, my actions yesterday seemed incomprehensible, even to myself. The combination of ****, the passions aroused by the debate and Brandon's insufferable attractiveness had caused me to do something irredeemably stupid. There was nothing I could do to change that now, but I could make sure it never happened again. It was a one-time event, caused by a catastrophic lapse of judgment. I would make sure of it!{endif}