The moon is breaking through the clouds

As we are standing there, I notice the environment around us become easier to see. I look up and notice that the big cloud in front of the moon is moving away, allowing it’s rays to illuminate us. Crap, he’s going to see that I am not Kaileigh. I quickly take a step back, but it is too late. There is enough light for him to see who I am and realize that I am in fact not his girlfriend.

For a moment, I manage to see the guy, just before he recognizes me.

Wow, I didn’t know Kaileigh was in a relationship with Zayden. Oh gosh, I could end up marrying Zayden.

As expected, when Zayden realizes I am not actually his girlfriend, his face contorts in shock and after a big gasp he cries, “Mearna?!”

I fear that if I stick around, he is going to get angry. I blurt out I'm sorry and run away. And then start running away. Towards the bridge the guys can use to head back home, as it is closest to us.

Having stolen Zayden’s seed, I no longer need to be in the forest. I head straight to the village, feeling guilty about what I’ve done the whole way. As I run home, I hold my hand on my lower belly, where I’m keeping Zayden’s seed safe. I have had a guy’s seed there before, in previous Samhain years. But none of those guys were in a relationship. That seed was not going to go to any girl before I sucked it out. This time it’s different. For once, I actually stole seed that was supposed to go to another girl. Gosh, I am just the worst.

When I make it to the village, I head straight to the barn. By the look of it, I may very well be the first one that came back. There are still so many piles of clothes around. I stick around a little after I get my clothes on. To look at the white stone necklace I’ve got and read Zayden’s name over and over. I am going to have Zayden’s baby now and he is going to marry me. I do hope that he forgives me. I mean, I will make it so he is going to be a father to a Samhain child. That should mean something, right?

After a short time though, the door opens and Gwyneth comes in.

“Oh, Mearna. You’re already here.” She says while staring at me.

“Yeah, I am. I uhm, had my guy.” I answer while smiling awkwardly. “How, how did it go for you?”

“I didn’t stray.” Gwyneth says as she makes a beeline for her clothes. “I am not a slut like some girls.”

I am not too surprised that Gwyneth thinks like that. Her parents are known to be radically against the Samhain event.

“Eh, I’m sorry. That came out wrong.” Gwyneth apologizes out of nowhere. “I am sure you are not a slut, Mearna. You are just using the event to try and find a husband, right? It’s the girls who stray but try their best to not get pregnant that are the sluts.”

I actually wouldn’t mind a little casual sex every now and then. It’s just that none of the guys want to be my boyfriend.

“So, which guy did you get?” Gwyneth asks.

“It’s Zayden, look.” I say, as I walk over to Gwyneth and show her the necklace.

“The carpenter’s apprentice. Nice.” Gwyneth says as she puts on the last of her clothes. “Well, I hope he makes you happy.”

“I hope so too.” I say with a hopeful smile. I mean, I can certainly hope that Zayden will eventually forgive me.

I then put the necklace on and Gwyneth and I both leave the barn. I go straight homewards, like a bee queen returning home from a successful maiden flight. When I lie down in my bed, I reach with my hand for an empty spot next to me. I try to fantasize about a future, about two months from now, where I am pregnant and Zayden is lying where the empty space is. Then he smiles at me and tells me how much he loves me.

For a moment, I remember that he is in fact Kaileigh’s boyfriend. That his heart is with her, not me, and I am just using a pregnancy to steal him from her. That brings down my mood and makes me feel guilty again. I never thought I would have been able to be this selfish. I am going to be a total homewrecker now.

I wipe away a tear and shake my head. The world we live in is a cruel one. You either take advantage of the opportunities that are given to you, or you end up being a loser. But it’s not like I can change what happened. His seed is inside me now and it is not possible for anyone to get it out. If I do end up taking him away from his girlfriend, I will try to make up with him. Like say, letting him have all the sex he wants. Doesn’t matter when, where or how.