Stella has a decision to make

The following chapter is written in 3rd person POV, following Stella and Cassie.

Cassie and Stella are sitting on a table outside a convenience store, with instant ramen noodle bowls to fill Stella’s stomach and sports drinks to hydrate her after puking the **** away. Cassie also bought mouthwash so Stella can get rid of the stench of the puke from her mouth.

Stella’s been silent the entire time after she barfed in the alley, but she seems to be recovering from the after effects of the dehydration after she got some food inside her again and some electrolytes. Cassie’s waiting out the haze that’s probably still clouding Stella’s mind before she starts her interrogation of why Stella decided to do a ‘getting drunk’ speedrun.

“I’m not drunk anymore.” Stella finally says, breaking the silence. “Can you buy me some mixers so I can get my buzz back?” Stella adds, and Cassie’s unsure if Stella’s actually serious or just asking to annoy Cassie. Cassie stands up, pretending like she might actually go back inside the convenience store to do what Stella asked, but she stops and quickly turns around to Stella.

“Spill it. What’s this about?” Cassie finally starts her interrogation.

“I think I’ve done enough spilling for tonight, thank you very much.” Stella replies to deflect any further questioning before she slurps some instant ramen noodles.

“Okay. If that’s how you want to play this… Fine.” Cassie says with determination.

“Did you enjoy yourself when you were watching your dad and I have sex?” Cassie nonchalantly asks, making Stella **** on her ramen noodles. Stella starts coughing. Cassie, unable to control her instincts to take care of her friend, hands her a sports drink so Stella can stop the coughing.

“What?” Stella asks a bit out of breath, denying Cassie’s allegation.

“Are we ready to talk now?” Cassie asks.

“I have no fucking clue what you’re talking about.” Stella continues to deny.

“Okay. So, we’re not talking. I’ll just monologue then.” Cassie states matter-of-factly.

“I saw you. Don’t deny it. I haven’t brought it up until now, because I thought my best friend would tell me about it when she’s ready, but I have a sneaking suspicion that whatever it is that brought out this sorry attempt at a dumb party girl has something to do with Mr. Craig.” Cassie tells Stella.

Stella doesn’t react, remains silent, and continues to not look at Cassie’s direction. Maybe it’s something Stella got from her dad, but Cassie knows she’s on the right track with that assumption.

“Your dad may not have seen you since his back was to the door, but I did.” Cassie reveals to Stella. “I thought I imagined you at first, but you were there. Enjoying yourself from the looks of it. I was so into my own stuff that night, that it didn’t really bother me that you were watching. Hell, I thought it was kind of hot.” The last statement shocks Stella, and makes her blush. Stella looks at Cassie this time, wanting to see if Cassie meant what she said.

“Yeah. I thought it was hot. Maybe it even woke up something inside me, I don’t know.” Cassie admits to Stella without a hint of embarrassment, and Stella looks away again, being the one that’s embarrassed this time. “I wasn’t really sure you were watching us until the day after though. You made it too obvious.” Cassie tells Stella, making Stella turn to Cassie again curious.

“House Rules? Your Dad can’t check your scores?” Cassie states, and Stella goes wide eyed at Cassie’s deduction. “I’m not stupid Stella, and neither are you. You should’ve known I’d find that interesting coming from you. I never brought it up because I was waiting for you to tell me. I’m done waiting. Especially after tonight.” Cassie says, reminding Stella that they’re outside a convenience store on a Friday night, still a couple of hours before midnight, and their first night out together is already practically over because of Stella’s insistence to get drunk as quickly as possible.

“What do you have to hide Stella?” Stella looks away again, seemingly still not wanting to talk about this with her best friend. “Are you afraid that your Dad’s going to find out you love him? Afraid he might learn his daughter has fantasies about him? Afraid that he’ll find out his daughter likes to play with herself while she watches Daddy fuck—”

“STOP!” Stella shouts. Head in her hands, obviously in tears after hearing her best friend voice out all the things she’s been internally struggling with the entire week. Cassie immediately goes to her friend to rub her back, apologetic that she might have gone too far and might have emotionally hurt Stella.

“Stop.” Stella repeats over and over again.

“I’m done Stella. I’m sorry. I just wanted you to tell me. I’m sorry for forcing it out of you.” Cassie apologizes.

“Stop.” Stella repeats after a few minutes, and has seemingly stopped crying. “I mean stop rubbing my fucking back, I’m not five years old.” Stella adds, and Cassie immediately stops.

“I’m sorry for snapping at you. It’s just… mom used to do that whenever I cried. I don’t need her in my head right now.” Stella explains.

“Fine. I admit it. I watched you guys on your first night together.” Stella admits with a defeated tone.

“I just came home from Tanya’s and his bedroom door was sorta open and I peeked in out of harmless curiosity. Then I saw his naked back, and I heard you moan, and I couldn’t look away anymore. Maybe it was the **** that I drank with Tanya but I just… I couldn’t help myself.” Stella continued.

“At the time, I thought it was wrong. No, I didn’t just think… I was a hundred percent sure I was doing something fucked up. Not even for the peeping part, but for the ‘getting horny for my dad’ part.” Stella states, openly admitting her thoughts about her dad. “I was so convinced that night that I was going to either hell or jail for being attracted to him... but I didn’t care. I was so —” Stella pauses, releases a guttural grunt, then continues, “I was so fucking horny for him.”

Cassie stays silent after hearing Stella’s words. She knows there’s more Stella hasn’t told her, so she’s holding back her reaction, but Cassie knows Stella admitting those feelings for her dad were huge.

“Then the doorbell rang and I snapped back to reality. I’m pretty sure I came in the hallway, but I was still so goddamn fucking horny I kept at it all night just imagining you two… and then imagining him with Tanya… and then —” Stella stops to let out a burp, “Fuck. I don’t think all the ****’s left me yet.” Stella comments. “Anyway, yeah, I started imagining him with me too.” Stella admits.

“I felt so dirty the day after for some reason. Like I did the most wrong thing in the world. So I couldn’t let you guys know. You remember the advice I gave you when we were out running and you asked me what you should do about your feelings for my dad?” Stella asks.

“Keep it in my pants or go all out?” Cassie responds.

“Yeah. Well, I decided to keep it in my pants. I thought that was the right thing to do. So, yeah, I’m sorry if I made you keep it in your pants too. I couldn’t handle the teasing. Calling him ‘daddy’ in front of me, I got so fucking jealous.” She admits.

“Seeing you guys in the bathroom was the last straw though. The first thought in my head was to get naked too and just share him with you! Then I remembered I couldn’t do shit. So I screamed. I knew after that I needed you guys to not fuck around me for a while.”

Cassie’s floored at how open Stella is now, but Cassie guesses it was her fault for opening the dam, and the dam’s just bursting because of the added help of **** left in her system. Still, Stella’s not off the hook yet.

“It still doesn’t explain why you decided to act like this tonight.” Cassie tells Stella, directing her to explain herself.

“Oh, I am not going back home sober. I’d rather be blackout drunk than hear Tanya’s screams tonight. That’s for goddamn sure.” Stella quickly answers.

“That’s it?” Cassie asks, a building fury growing inside her. Stella looks at her in confusion, asking her ‘what more do you want?’ with just her eyes. “You ruined girls’ night so you don’t have to hear your dad fucking another woman? That’s it?” Cassie asks with irritation. Stella looks at her like that’s a perfectly reasonable explanation which only angers Cassie more.

“I’ve been looking forward to this night the entire week! It was our night! Our first night out in the city. A night we imagined back when we were still in middle school wondering what it was like to be grown ups and stuff.” Cassie shouts at Stella, who didn’t even realize how much Cassie looked forward to this night.

“So, what now? Every time your dad and Tanya go out you’ll get sloshed out of your mind? What about me? You’re gonna keep finding bullshit reasons so that your dad and I won’t have sex? What if he wants to be with another girl? You’re going to get drunk every day trying to —” Cassie bombards Stella, her emotions getting the best of her too, before Stella cuts her off.

“I’M SORRY! OKAY!? I obviously haven’t thought this through. It’s my first day realizing IT’S OKAY TO FUCK MY DAD! SO GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK!” Stella shouts back at Cassie. The people going in and out of the convenience store just stare at the two girls fighting for a few seconds after hearing what Stella shouted, but like most people in this city, they quickly go back to their own business, as whatever’s happening is not their concern.

“I woke up this morning with the sudden realization that what I’m feeling isn’t wrong, you know? After a lifetime of thinking how bad that would be, you know? Like, out of the blue, I realized I’m the only one who’s torturing myself for deciding not to pursue something with my dad. So what if I like him? Shit. A part of me already loves him as a dad, and it’s just all mixing into one big blob of… I just want to fucking be with him.” Stella shares.

“And I can’t… or at least can’t tonight, or maybe even tomorrow, or the week after, I don’t know. He’ll have two girlfriends by the end of the night, I’m sure of that, so will he even have time for me? Fuck. Then I remember I have no right to be jealous because I’m the dumb bitch who wanted him to go after you two.” Stella spills some more, before muffling her scream of frustration in her hands.

Cassie understood Stella’s struggle now. She has to admit, before last night, she had a feeling that Stella was attracted to her dad; but knew and understood why she couldn’t do anything about it. Something changed last night that made her think it’s not that bad for Stella to feel that way or even pursue it further. Cassie then remembers what would have been the catalyst for that, and she starts connecting the dots— Jay being attracted to his cousin, Jay thinking it was wrong to do so, Cassie and Stella both suddenly thinking it’s not wrong for Stella to be with her dad, why it’s only Jay she’s not bothered by when it comes to him having incestuous desires...

As the puzzle starts to complete in Cassie’s head, her phone rings. Speak of the devil.

“Hey, Mr. Craig. — Sorry. Jay. I’m with Stella and I’m still not used to calling you Jay in front of her. — You’re on your way back to the apartment? Ms. Tanya wants to speak with me? In person? Tomorrow?” Cassie pauses and looks at Stella who still has her head in her hands, probably suffering from dizziness again.

“How about tonight? You said she wants to talk to me before going any further right? I’ll talk to her tonight, and you talk with Stella. — No! No, everything’s fine with her. She’s just had too much to drink too quickly. — Are you still in the restaurant? Oh, you switched restaurants? Can you pick us up? We’re at a 24-Seven near L Street. Yeah. See you in a bit. Love you.”

As Cassie ends the call, she notices Stella looking at her now. “You better decide if you’re going to keep it in your pants any further…”

“Otherwise, it’s time to go all out Stella.”

~HUGHRK~

Stella pukes out all the ramen noodles she ate earlier.

Author's Update: I celebrated one month of writing with this chapter, and decided that instead of splitting this into two chapters and ruin the flow, I thought it could be like a one-month special type thing. I really wished it was a sex scene, but didn't want to **** it. I hope you're enjoying the build up. XD