Would appear so

Later I sat alone thinking about what had happened. I was really confused, both incredibly turned on by my experience, but also deeply humiliated, with a sense of betrayal in the background. I couldn't stop thinking about Helen and Rachel had done that to me - how I had responded. And every time I got angry I just couldn't sustain it, because the more I thought about it the more turned on I got. Which just made me more confused. Which made me frustrated and angry.

And so it went on. And because I didn't know what to say to Helen.., I said nothing.

And so it was that we spent the rest of the day, and the next not discussing it. Even though it occupied every waking thought. And that was only magnified because Helen took it upon herself to make sure she was walking around ALL THE TIME dressed in the sexiest and most provocative way. Gone from breakfast was the boyfriend T-short, now replaced with a see through babydoll. She was waiting for me to say something, always with this knowing look in her eye. She looked like she was getting a real thrill from the tease, from the frisson between us.

And I love her. Lusted after her. If I thought she was hot before, the room was literally melting around her now in my eyes. I couldn't take my eyes off her. Unbidden thoughts of her makeing love to other men, to me, even to Rachel. I was beside myself with lust for my wife.

Yet though this time we didn't have sex. for me to broach it would require me to talk about what had happened. And she seemed to be happy with the tease.

I knew something would have to give. I was living with the sexiest, most desirable woman on the planet and I needed sex.