Anxiety followed by Panic

But that would mean that you and Alex wouldn't be a thing any more. You weren't gay and it would never work with you both being guys. You start feeling a clump in your stomach. You would probably never find a girl that would treat you the same as Alex has done. Go trough so much for you. You start feeling really scared. You wouldn't get to be Alex's girl any more. You would never get to experience his soft kisses or his hands on your naked form again. You look down on your body. You would never get to experience such great and fulfilling sex as when Alex fucks you. His strong hands caressing you as he pounds you with his cock, filling you completely. He would never hold you tight as he trusts into your innermost dept's, never again experience an orgasm as he twitches inside you, filing you to the brim with his seed.

It's not fair, you think. Things are starting to turn out for the better and then everything just disappears. You remember shopping with Gwen, that would never happen again. You would never get to shop for girl clothes and learn the feminine ways with your sister. Then you remember the baby emporium and it feels like someone just punched you in the gut. You would never be a mother. You will never get to experience pregnancy, never feel the feeling of having a life grow inside you. You will never get to hold your baby, dress it up in cute outfits. Never care for it. At least not the same way as a mother would.

You start to feel like you cant breath. Panic starts to take hold of you as you realize: you want to stay a girl.