Yes, but its his fault.

"Yeah?"

He's walking back in from the built in restroom drying his hands on a towel.

Guess he felt dirty after touching me like that, he really was doing me a favor, he's straight and I really don't cut it as chick yet.

I guess he notices my tear and lack of response, he speeds up and is back by my side before I can muster a response.

"Oh babe what's wrong?" He moves some hair out of my face to get a better look at me.

"I don't know, I I felt great, better than I ever had, my brain blanked on everything else, and my body acted like I'd had all my bones removed." *Sniff* I can't seem to make the tears stop, "then I noticed you were gone and I don't know I just sorta spiraled, why, was this all a trick, was I that disgusting to touch, was this all a trick? I felt so small..."

"Oh babe, God no, none of that," He's now half hugging me and half cleaning up the mess he made of me with the towel, "This is my fault baby, I should have known I couldn't treat you like some vanilla hook up. This was bigger than anything you've done right?"

"You are my first..." I feel shame at admitting that. "I've never felt this good when masturbating, and even while crying I still tingle a bit."

"Wait, you were a virgin? How? You had a body that would have had most women falling head over heels for you!"

"But not the right one." I whisper as I draw into myself, wanting the floor to open up and swallow me.

"...I don't even know what to say to that at this point." I don't think he meant to say that, I hope so at least.

He must have realized what he said because I'm in his arms as the tears well up again. "Hey, its all ok, I'm here for you and I'm going to help you how ever you need. Trust em, everything will be ok. Lets get some rest it'll all be better in the morning."

I let him drag me to his bed to be held as I passed out in his arms, 'god I hope that's true.'

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The next morning came too soon and I was a bundle of nerves and confusion.

My Body still twitched and spasmed at odd times and there was a heat that permeated my body.

Waking up in his arms after what happened last night gave me mixed emotions.

He treated me so differently and the dirty talk got harsher than I ever expected from a guy like him.

Then there was the cage, that started leaking as soon as I was awake enough to start having these thoughts, or maybe form off and on all night if the wet stickiness between my thighs was anything to go about.

I didn't even have that horny a dream.

Just me and Seb on a double date with Alice and a more fem version of myself.

Was it because of how we had sex? Was it the Hormones?

The thing Seb said last night, that I was too lust drunk to process, had me clenching up my body in frustration as I shouted into my own head, 'WHICH, WERE THE HELL DID THAT COME FROM, WHAT HORMONES?!'

But that turned out to be a mistake.

I had underestimated just how sensitive my body was and my normal muscle clench and release exercise, to center and focus, did something different to my body and I was hit with a wave of lust and a mini-orgasm.

My cage, and wasn't that a thought, was leaking even more and I had to muffle myself by pressing my face down.

This did nothing to hide what happened from Seb though, who I had thought was still asleep.

"Oh is my little pet already horny and needy?"

"What the hell man, I don't need dirty talk right n- AAAHH O-Oh god."

With just a small movement that set my body on fire, a simple one finger stroke on my cock head through the cage, he had silenced my protest.

"Shuush darling, I decide what you need from now on, heck you practically begged me when this started, and you did beg me last night. What was it you said, 'Please just fuck me please I'll do anything, just fuck my brains out', or something like that? This is what you wanted, not backing down are you, not after everything surly.", He lifts my chin, from where I've buried myself into his chest again, up to where I'm looking him in eyes.

I can tell he wants an answer and is willing to wait me out for it.

I don't have one yet as I had just woken up but I can tell from who he is and how things have went that if I backed out now he wouldn't hold it against me and might even help me undo some of the changes to my life. He's holding back on doing anything else to me now he's worried I might actually mean the look in my eyes as he treats me this way.

He also knows what to say to help my addled mind get back on target, well mostly.

'This is what I agreed to, this is part of what I asked him, Alice is a top. If I want to be with her I need to be able to be a bottom. Can I do that? Can I sell that act, or even take that kind of treatment on the regular?' The fact the thought of it made me leak even more was my answer. Last night had felt amazing, even the parts that sacred me.

Something had surpassed my drive to work towards my goals for the first time in my life, my lust was like a caged beast that had escaped.

BUT, I also know that what he's doing, or what I'm going to be made to do, scares me more than near anything else. Normally my drive towards my goal was what I used to crush and ignore fear, and normally that's enough, and the few times when its not I take my cue from the survival instincts I usually ignore.

Now the fear was turning me on at the same time.

'Both my main drives right now are telling me to keep moving forward, no matter the cost. What's fear or nervousness in comparison to that.'

The sound my voice made when I answered drove home just how out of my depth I was, "Yes, Sir?" but I wouldn't let that stop me.

I trembled as I tried to answer clearly, the statement coming out as a question, I was trying to be respectful like when I worked customer service. Trying to code switch and find something from my past that would fit the tone he was using with me now. It didn't quite fit but it was the closest thing I could think of.

He smiled at me but there was doubt in his eyes, " 'Yes' what, pet? Be clear, I take consent very seriously. Do you want to quit and have to undo everything we've worked so hard for? Or do you want me to keep you as MINE while I train you for her? Don't worry I'll still treat you like my GF in public, you'll only be my pet when others can't see."

He was really going to make me have to say it while I'm still twitching and trembling. With a near breathless vocalization, "Please sir keep training me, I'll be whatever you need me to, I'm not backing down. I'll be yours until I'm ready to be hers'. "

My heart was beating faster with that admission.

And it seemed he could tell, it clearly amused him if the smile that took over his face was anything to go by.

"That's my girl, would you like a reward?"

"Sir, I don't know if I can handle any rewards right now, but that's not up to me anymore is it?" I try to end the statement cheeky but the false bravado doesn't fool either of us.

"Oh don't worry slut, I can already tell that, you've made quite a mess. No, I was thinking after we get you cleaned up I'd take you out for you're favorite type of date."

I didn't know what that meant as I didn't really have one, none of them sucked but nothing we've done so far had really taken a lead either. The closest I could think was the movies and he was making a joke about how I made out with him for the first time there.

"Where?"

"Why the Mall of course. Every girl loves to go to the mall on their BF's dime."

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