Monica wants to talk

"Come in!" I called out.

Peering her head through the door, Monica meekly said, "Hi."

I sat up quickly. "Hey Monica," I replied, trying not to sound too eager. This was the about the first time we've spoken since our encounter.

"Christy? Can I come in?" She still hadn't moved from the doorway.

I stood up and motioned towards the bed. "Of course," I replied. She nodded and wordlessly came in. My room a bit messy, so she had to step over piles of clothes and underwear that had accumulated.

Finally, she sat down on the bed, and I sat down next to her, waiting for her to initiate, since it seems like she wants to speak her mind. Like a timid bird.

She just looked down at the ground for a while, and fear flashed through my mind. Monica was fragile, easily startled. I took the lead and almost **** her to do what I wanted. She was probably horrified and has since been avoiding me because of it.

The right thing to do was to apologize first and salvage what was left of this relationship. I started to say, "hey-"

But I was cut off. Monica stated first, "I'm sorry for avoiding you." She spoke quickly, like she had practiced this in her head. She looked up at me, and she was blushing harder than when we had had sex. If I wasn't so confused and aroused, I'd find it adorable.

She continued. "It's just, I thought I was straight all these years, and suddenly you come and confuse me. And I'm not saying it was bad, because it felt good and it felt right. But I've only ever been with one guy in my life, and it ended quickly after that. I don't know what to expect from something like this.

"But i can't stop thinking about you. You keep showing up in my head, and I replay that night over and over. I've never felt like that before and I want to feel like this again. But I don't know what this is. I don't know if this is casual, or if you want a real commitment. I don't know, Christy.

She looked me straight in the eyes for this part. She was dead serious. "But I trust you," she continued. "If this was a one night thing, I understand. But if you want more, I want that too."

"So tell me, Christy. What do you want? Do you want to get serious, or is just for fun?"