I'm not ready for that, yet

I let out a small moan at his touch, closing my eyes and leaning my head back a bit. Before I today, I had been in a bit of a dry spell. I just didn't find anyone I really clicked with, so I'd been relying pretty heavily on the little helper I kept in my nightstand. So the offer from this guy was awfully tempting...

But, no. As much as I'd like to, I didn't know if I could do that with a total stranger. Not yet, at least.

"Ah...no," I shook my head, taking a small step back from him. "Thank you, but...no."

"Alright," he said simply, shrugging and turning away to walk down the street. "Have a good one."

I breathed a gentle sigh of relief, grateful he didn't make a big deal about me turning him down. Taking a brief look around, I saw no one else seemed to have noticed that.

So you don't have to have sex, I thought as I continued walking in the direction I was going before. Good to know...

It felt weird to think that, but honestly any little bit of information was helping now. For all I knew, it was entirely possible people had some sort of quota they had to meet every single day.

I didn't really have a goal or destination in mind, right now. I was just trying to get my bearings, and figure out what the hell was going on. However, I quickly realized that that's a little difficult to do when everyone was staring at me like I'm a freak. The blanket wrapped around my body stood out pretty starkly against the sea of nude bodies.

I felt tempted to turn to the people ogling me and tell them to back off, but I held my tongue. After all, in their eyes, I was the freak, here. I was covering myself up, when all of them were letting it all hang out without a care in the world.

"Shit..." I mumbled to myself, realizing what I had to do. I didn't like it, but I also didn't like all this extra attention I was getting.

I screwed my eyes shut and grabbed the top of my blanket, taking a few deep breaths to steady myself. I then flung my arms wide, exposing myself fully to the people around me.

One second passed, then two...nothing. I slowly opened one eye, and saw that no one was reacting at all.

I mean...I guess that makes sense, I thought, bending down to grab my blanket off the ground, only to stand back up quickly when I realize the view I gave everyone behind me. Was that ok, here?

Peaking over my shoulder, again, no one seemed to have noticed me at all. In fact, all around me, all the eyes that were on me moments ago had turned away. I just blended into the crowd, now.

Still...better safe than sorry, I thought, balling the blanket up and holding it beneath my arm before walking off again.