Go back upstairs

You go back north into the stairwell, up six flights, into the hallway, and into your apartment. You move through the living room and into the bedroom.

You are unsure how much time you have left before "Gerald" returns, so you decide to assume the position you have been commanded to take. You lay on your belly in the floor, your head at the foot of the bed, and your feet pointed towards the door. You grasp the legs of the bed, and spread your legs as far as they can go, and wait.

This pose make you feel so exposed and vulnerable… yet you cannot decide if that is thrilling or terrifying. You imagine that it is you walking through the bedroom door and seeing a woman offering herself like this, and you know what your reaction would be: you’d be fucking the woman in this position right away.

You realize that you have a moment, though, to consider what you want to do when Sophie comes through the door in your body. You think it is just possible that she would agree to return you to your own body at some point. She has a strong sense of fairness. She seemed to be enjoying her time as a man in the Beauty IVR, and sent you back to her body so she could use yours now, but she hasn't been the type to steal if you protest.

You are pretty sure, though, that you don’t want to be “Gerald” any more. The intensity of your feelings as a female has been simply overwhelming, and you don’t want to go back to being half-dead on the inside, as you now see it. Even now, though you feel fear and helplessly vulnerable in this condition, at least you feel.

No, you decide, you won’t go back, if you can help it. Yet, you are still basically a man on the inside, and you don’t know how to be a woman.