Be her sub

"Look, Mary..." That's enough to get to her stop and give you her attention. "You're obviously disappointed. My dick is too small and I cum too fast. I'm not what you were hoping for."

"Stop," Mary interjects. "Don't apologize. It's not your fault."

"I know it's not my fault, Mary, but I don't want to lose you!" You see a look of pity in Mary's eyes. Maybe there's still a chance.

"I'm not the man you were hoping for, and I get that sex is important in a relationship. Maybe I can't be that kind of man, and maybe we can't have that kind of relationship. If we have feelings for each other, can't we try to find an arrangement that we can both enjoy?" You know what you're going to propose, and you can no longer tell if you want her to accept or refuse. It would be emasculating, but you don't want to lose Mary.

"I don't know," she replies. "I like you. I really do. But you lied to me. It's an understandable lie, and I can forgive you if it doesn't happen again, but what am I going to get out of sex in this relationship if I can't even feel you inside of me?"

You just can't think of any other way to keep her. You've broken her trust and disappointed her twice, and you need to even the score. "You can... get even with me if you like." Mary is all ears. "If I can't be the man you need me to be –️ if I can't fill the traditional role –️ then maybe you could be the 'man'. This relationship can be all about me serving you and making sure that you're satisfied."

Mary thinks it over. "I guess I can see the appeal of being in charge. I get off on Fifty Shades of Grey. I kind of expected to be Anastasia, but I've enjoyed myself imagining being Christian. I don't know anything about being a mistress, though. Do you know anything about being a ****?"

"Not really, I guess," you concede. "I think I know how femdom works, though. God knows I've seen enough of it in porn. And... I know where to find a harness and a dildo if you'd like to fuck my ass."

Your heart stops as the words leave your lips. That was probably a stupid thing to say. And that was definitely a stupid way to say it. Fuck. Did you just mess this up?