"Maybe..."

As Jan's hands touch my hips and move very slowly to my bottom, a shiver of excitement runs through me mixed with a pinch of confusion and embarrassment. His touch is delicate and gentle, yet electrifying, and I feel my heart beat faster as I surrender to his grip.

A hint of uncertainty mixes with the growing desire as I feel his hands exploring my bottom. The warmth of his touch fills me with an intense sensuality that makes me savor the moment.

A mixture of fear and desire builds inside me as I ponder the meaning of his touch. The lines between uncertainty and desire blur, and I'm not sure how to deal with this sudden intimacy.

The words get stuck in my throat as I try to organize my thoughts and understand what is happening. The feelings Jan's touch triggers in me are contradictory and confusing, and I don't know whether to allow them or reject them.

The feelings running through me are intense. The gentle kneading movements of his hands on my bottom create a feeling of tenderness and desire that makes me long for more. At the same time, I feel a certain fear of the unknown and of the possible vulnerability that comes with allowing his touch.

My mind wrestles with my emotions as I try to make a decision. Should I give in to the desire and let Jan's touch fill me? Or should I respect my insecurity and maintain my boundaries?

As I press lightly against Jan's hands, I feel a wave of excitement and desire wash over me. His tender touch feels like a revelation and I forget my embarrassment and insecurity for a moment.

"Something inside you probably wanted your beauty not to stay alone in the garden." The words that Jan whispers softly in my ear hit me like a gentle breath of affirmation and I feel a warm feeling of contentment and happiness flood through me. His compliment makes my heart beat faster and I feel seen and appreciated in a way that overwhelms me.

A contented smile flits across my lips as I wish that this moment would never end. Time seems to stand still as I surrender to Jan's touch, and I feel a deep connection to him that transcends the awkward situation. The feelings that Jan's touch triggers in me are overwhelming and liberating at the same time.

Despite my age, I feel like a teenager on a first date at this moment. The excitement, the embarrassment, the insecurity - all these feelings swirl around inside me and make my heart beat faster. It's a mixture of thrill and fear, a rollercoaster of emotions that overwhelms me. But strangely enough, everything somehow feels right.