Glutton for Punishment

Male Masochism

Chapter 1 by ofhabit ofhabit

I'm not sure where it stems from, but I love . For me, sex isn't exciting if it's not dangerous, or kinky; pleasure just isn't that pleasurable unless it's mixed with a little bit of pain. Pain is sharper, more noticable, more real than "pleasure" ever is.

I suppose it's not right, but it feels that way to me. My favorite girlfriends have always been the ones that are "bad" for me- that are vocally or physically abusive, the ones that love to experiment and to take it "too far" ... the kinky ones. I'm more than willing to be kinky right back, but I am at my most thrilled when I am tied down, when I am blindfolded, when I am commanded or or taken advantage of. These are the things that really turn me on.

I know there are other males like me, but I have yet to meet any. The girls who I have convinced to chastise me (they usually take convincing) seem to be completely surprised by my needs and desires. I know there are others like me, due to the prevalence of dominatrices and the perceptions of cuckolds in our culture, but, again, I am the only one I know.

In many ways, I suppose I break the mold of the "standard" cuckold; it seems to me that the public would imagine the kind of man that goes to a dominatrix to be middle aged, balding, with glasses; quiet spoken or even stuttering, a little man with a little penis and even less of a sex drive. I, by contrast, am in my mid twenties, have a full head of brown hair, and the angular features generally associated with jocks and idiots. I am fit, to be true, but not ripped; I don't wear glasses; and though I don't have a monster in my pants, I am generously endowed.

So, perhaps the only way in which I am similar to the above mentioned "weak" men is my craving, my base need for degradation, humiliation, and pain. Take, for example, last night, with my ...

with whom?

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