patience is a virtue

The rest of my week was spent doing some self reflection. What did I want my fantasy to be? Would I want it to be of me with someone I know? Would I want it to be something fantastical? Physically impossible or ****.

“Well the last time you were like this you were doing a self portrait. But with this one, I just don’t know.” Mr. Leeman pointed out. I had started on a symbol sort of piece. I was trying to recreate the one on Lily’s desk, but Mr. Leeman didn’t need to know that. “Whatever you are working on you are taking your sweet time”

“I only got one look at it the other day. It’s been racking my brain ever since. Trying to recreate it.” I had only begun doing line sketching. No paint on the canvas. Yet.

“Well it’s certainly going to be a good one. Simple on the outset but not lacking potential.” He wasn’t wrong. I felt similarly about the key. And yet I had hope. That it would turn out better than my fears.

I took a second look through my various porn libraries to try and narrow something down. I kept finding one or two that I would lean toward. There was the fantastical of transformations that boiled down to something like an extraordinary hermaphrodite. And that of some BDSM, rope and other bondage play. A few other kinks thrown in but I was able to figure that one was more of my submissive side and the other more dominant.

I decided on three fantasies, getting a mind shattering blowjob, getting fucked bound up in restraints, and me passionately sleeping with my partner. In the last two of the three I wanted to be or become a more feminine version of myself. After a few days of in and out with classes and such I decided I’d use the key. After school on a friday nobody would be around. Similar circumstances to the last time I used the key.

Outside of thinking about the key I made it a goal of mine to try and work up the courage to talk to Ashley. They had been exchanging smiles more in passing more often. A boost to her self worth would be good for her. I might even share the key with her. But all of that would come later. For now I just wanted to try this thing. Lily was right. I couldn’t not think about coming back.

Just like last time I made my way to the maintenance door in back of the art building. Did a double check.

*Click* and with a turn to the right. I took my first steps thinking of my fantasies. Off to the races.