You don't feel good about yourself

Not at all! For fucks sake you almost gave in. On the first day. How do you suppose to hold on till Friday? It seems that you bite much more than you can chew. And the worst thing is...that you can't back out now. You have to fight and hope that somehow...that somehow you will manage to win. But you know that chances of that are thin. Maybe this night will help you. Maybe. But you doubt it.