You Don't Hesitate

You feel anger rush into you at the unfairness of the whole situation. You push her back with **** and the look of shock on her face sends a rush through your body."NO" You scream and for a moment there is silence before you feel a dam inside you break and you say "Get OUT of my apartment. Sam, I love you, maybe I just loved you and it is over I don't know. I loved you so much that when you changed I didn't break up with you I stayed with you. I loved you so much I crossed a line I never thought I would cross and sucked your dick because I knew you were in pain and needed help. I loved you so much I kept doing it even as you grew into more and more of an asshole. I'm not your fucking girlfriend, and you are certainly not the person who I asked to be my girlfriend. You have turned into a fucking uncaring asshole who thinks the size of their cock entitles them to something." I am panting shaking in rage and Sam tries to say something but I don't give her the chance.

"Go out THERE into the real world and see how many people are willing to give you blowjobs instead of calling you a freak. You took advantage of my love and I want you GONE. I fucking hated giving you blowjobs but I did it because I LOVED YOU. I got NO pleasure, it was DISGUSTING to me and I hated myself for doing it. Get the FUCK out of my apartment or I will call the cops. I will fucking mail you whatever you can't carry so go sleep on in a hotel or on the street for all I fucking care" I say crying down. Sam tries to come close and hug me but I push her back again and scream "DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME YOU FREAK".

She looks broken but I am beyond caring. I just collapse onto the kitchen floor crying as she backs out of the room slowly. After a while, I hear the front door open and close. I can't bear to go back to our bed so instead, I simply crawl to the couch and try and fall asleep. Even it still smells like her and it only makes me cry more.