Tell her

Right as her dress fall to the floor, leaving my wife standing there in nothing but spike hills and a thong, I think that I just can't keep my secret a secret any longer. Wether she will understand or not is beyond my control, but she is here and wanting to try. The least i can do is be honest with her.

"I was planning on making to to another man this weekend," I tell her, and I can see an unrecognizable look pass over her still shiny face. She takes a seat next to me on the bed and for a moment just stares at the floor.

"Its different hearing you say it," she said softly. "I wasn't snooping, but you forget to close the browser on the computer a lot and I sometimes see what you've been looking at. You watch a lot of gay porn. Chat on a couple of gay message boards. O try to leave you alone and let you have your whatecer it is. But I just...I...I saw where you posted you were going to sleep with a man this weekend and I panicked."

I could feel my face turning red. My biggest secret was out of the bag to the one person in the world I most wanted to keep it from. I could see the hurt it was causing her, and that hurt me. But part of me couldn't help think of all those times she had turned me down for sex.

"Do you still find me attractive?" she asked very softly.

"Of course I do," I said.

"So you aren't totally into guys?"

"No...I guess you would say I am bi-curious," I said. "I love you and I love your body. I want to make love to you right now. But through all these years and all the times you weren't interested, I discovered another side of myself. I want to feel..."

I had never said it out loud before and suddenly the words were scary. She stared at me expectantly.

"I want to feel what its like to have somebody want me so badly that they shove their cock inside me," I said.

My wife stared at the floor for a moment that seemed to last forever. I tried to read her thoughts, which, of course, did not work. Was she going to storm out and leave me? Maybe she would understand. Maybe even the idea would excite her...