Renewal

I am laying in my bed and I feel like a lifeless blob. I feel like my ex-girlfriend Kaitlyn destroyed me. There is no way that I would have cheated on her. She should have known that, but she dumped me without a second thought. Periodic tears fall out of my eyes fall out of my eyes because of what she did causing my friends who are in the room to offer their encouragement in the form of words and warm touches. If the person that I loved most at Hartfeld betrayed me, which one of my friends would betray me next?

No, I cannot let myself think like that way. None of my other friends have ever given me any reason to doubt them. Besides, if I let myself doubt my friends, then I will wind up like Becca used to be. Becca kept pushing herself away from people because of the way her parents neglected her. Now I just might wind up like that if I am not careful. I think I have actually found something good about this dreadful situation. I now understand my new friend Becca better than ever. I have to remind myself how great my friends are. I give the teddy bear Madison gave me a squeeze. I touch the friendship necklace that Becca gave me. I look at frizzy-haired Abbie who is rubbing my left shoulder. I think about all of the other friends that are worried about me. I stop crying, but I am not ready to get out of bed yet.

"I'm sorry," Becca spoke.

"Why?" I ask while turning on my back so I can look at my former enemy.

"I am sorry that we dared you to kiss Kaitlyn during rushes," Becca answered with a deep frown on her face. "That's how this whole mess got started, isn't it? I never would have done it if I had known the kind of person she was."

"There is no way you could have known," I replied to show Becca that there was no need for an apology.

"Would you have went out with her if you had known what was going to happen?" Madison wondered.

"That is a tough question to answer," I mused. "On one hand, Kaitlyn hurt me more than anyone ever has, and on the other hand, I have all of these wonderful memories of her that I wouldn't trade for anything."

"That is such an adult answer," Becca marveled. "I admire you."

Becca's compliment shocked me and made me feel warm inside. For some reason, it really made me feel special because Becca was proud of me. I was about to tell her that when my laptop started beeping.

"I don't want to mess with that stupid thing now," I whined. "Can someone else get it?"

Becca was the closest to my laptop so she pushed the buttons to answer the phone ap. James' picture popped up on the screen. He just happened to be in Hollywood at the moment trying to turn his play into a movie. He got a bewildered look on his face when he saw Becca.

"Uh, do I have the wrong number?" James asked.

"No, James," Becca sighed. "This isn't a good time to talk to Portia."

"I'll call back..." James started to say.

"No!" I protested.

I slowly got out my bed while Becca got out of my chair with a confused look on her face. James' face scrunched into a look of concern when he saw my tear streaked face and my blood shot eyes. No matter how hurt I was, there was no way I was going to turn down a friend who might need my help.

"What happen to you?" James prodded.

"Kaitlyn dumped me," I revealed.

"What? Why?" James demanded.

"She accused me of ch-cheating," I stuttered which caused Becca to pat my head. "I only hugged Becca as a friend because I was helping her out with a personal problem. Kaitlyn saw it and lowered the boom on me."

"So Kaitlyn is a jerk and Becca is a friend," James grumbled. "You need a program to keep up with that school. Well, if I were you, I would tell her off."

"Becca took care of that for me," I announced with a smile with caused James to look like someone had stuck his finger in a light socket.

"Just when I think that I have that place figured out..." James complained.

"What did you want?" I prodded.

"They are really changing my movie," James complained. "I don't know what to do."

"You need to decide if the movie business is your dream and if you can put up with all of the pressure," I advised. "If not, then you need to give it up."

"Yasmin seems to think I could be I could be a hit," James debated.

"She is only after you!" I protested. "She threatened me at the airport!"

"I'll think about," James spoke out. "I'll let you go since you obviously have your own problems to deal with."

"Bye!" I spoke to end the conversation.

Becca and Madison excused themselves after the phone call because they both had homework to finish. They gave me their phone numbers and said that I could call them at any time. They even hugged me. For some reason, a warm feeling spread throughout my body when Becca hugged me. I could get used to having Becca as a friend.