Read AUTHOR'S NOTE!!!!

AUTHOR'S NOTE on the subject of sucking cock:

Hee hee hee. This thread started to get away from me a little because I enjoyed writing it immensely. I'm sure I've mentioned it enough by now, but I love sucking cock. I don't know why I find it so thrilling, but when I get in certain moods of arousal, I'm not even interested in vaginal sex, I just want to suck dick and eat cum. LOL, I know that makes me sound like such a stupid slut, but I can't help it. I can’t really tell my friends about this, cause they’ll think I’m a nympho or something. That’s part of the reason that I enjoy writing online; It’s one of the few places that I can share this stuff.

I’ve only had a few real-life friends that knew this about me. One was a girl who I knew early on in high school, before I was ever really sexually active, and who I lost touch with a long time ago. She was pretty much considered a slut and looked down on by everybody, but I always felt sorry for her. (most likely because I identified with the desires that she was acting on) She and I talked about that kind of stuff and I admitted to her that I secretly had recurring fantasies about being promiscuous and about being used. Talking with her played a big part in my realization that there’s nothing wrong with those desires, and I shouldn’t feel ashamed about them, no matter what other people think! BUT seeing how those other people talked about HER played a big part in my realization that I needed to be discreet to make sure I didn't get a reputation as a slut.

There were only two other real-life friends I had who knew about my urges. They were a couple of guys that I hung out with back where I used to live. I’d walk over to their place sometimes when I didn’t have anything better to do. I was still underage at this point and they were almost twenty, so neither of them ever tried to go out with me. They knew about my promiscuous side because the three of us got pretty drunk one afternoon and I ended up having sex with both of them. I don’t remember 100% how it went from hanging out and drinking to them double-teaming me on the couch; I just remember one of them started talking about being horny or needing a girl or something and the other one joking that it was “too bad Clarissa doesn’t count as a girl.” (Clarissa is my first name. Rachel is the name that I use for my “mistress” persona) I argued defensively that just because I'm their friend and I'm younger than them doesn’t mean I’m not a girl! I was mostly just arguing playfully, but I think part of me was a little offended; I'm not sure if it was because I felt my femininity was being undermined, or because they still thought of me as a kid.

Anyways, they started teasing me and telling me to prove I was a girl until I showed them my pussy. After that, their challenging me escalated until I ended up completely naked, laying on my back on the couch with one of them fucking me while the other leaned over me, placing his crotch in my face so I could suck his dick. The one in my mouth came first, which actually made me orgasm since I was getting nailed at the same time. After that, I wanted the one fucking me to cum in my mouth, too, but I was still inexperienced and not confident enough to take a more active role during sex or tell the guys what I wanted. So I just let him fuck me until orgasm. (I had started taking birth-control at this point, so I decided it was okay to let him cum in my vagina) I wanted to taste it so bad, so when he pulled out of me, I stuck my hand in my crotch, scooping up the fluids that were dribbling out of my vagina and licked them off my fingers. I still remember looking over and seeing those guys, one with his pants on, one with his pants down, staring at me with these stupid awe-struck looks on their faces, watching me suck cum and pussy juice off my fingers. It wasn’t until I saw the way they were looking at me that I realized it might be unusual for girl to enthusiastically eat cum from her own vagina. It seemed only natural at the time!!!

The two of them and I had never come close to doing anything dirty together before, and I kind of expected that after that isolated drunken incident everything would go back to normal. (except maybe we'd be a little awkward around each other for a little while) But instead of being isolated, the incident had been like opening the sexual flood gates. Once they realized sex with me was an option, I ended up being involved in many more sexual encounters with them.

There weren't anymore 3-ways with them, though. When they banged me simultaneously that first time, it was a horny, **** grab at sex, but once the guys realized we had plenty of opportunities to sleep together at our leisure, they only wanted me one-on-one. Usually, if they were both there when I came over, one of them would take me to his room and once he finished, I would go to the other guy’s room and have sex with him. When I first started fooling around with them, they’d eat my pussy, fuck me… but eventually, once they became well aware of my preoccupation with sucking dick, they realized that most of the time they could get away with just getting a blowjob from me and I wouldn't expect them to do anything for me in return. I didn't mind getting used. In fact, I LOVED finally being able to do slutty stuff without having to worry about anyone finding out, AND it was with a couple of guys I knew, liked, and trusted. So, needless to say, during this period of my life, I got about ZERO homework done and my grades started to slip. Whatever. It was worth it.