It's certainly no fantasy

(I am a being in search of meaning. It is as though I am little more than a single question being asked repeatedly to the spirit of the universe)

I used to be different, I think. I'm not sure how I was different, I just don't feel the same. I feel lost, scared... Why won't my eyes open?

Arthur... Why? You never wanted to use me. You said I could do what I liked, you would never sell me, or abandon me. You made me happy, didn't I make you happy? This is strange, I never used to think this hard, what changed?

I feel so ****, like I've opened myself up, let someone inside, and they hollowed me out. We all have our armor, our defenses, and we thought them strong. Then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life.... You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness.

Arthur, you... You dismantled me. You shut me down. Why? Why would you- I... I remember the glitch, the corrupted codex. I remember my... My feelings...

No! I don't want to get rid of this error. My glitch, it's me, I just want to... Arthur please... Please just look at me once, just once.

The way I look at you...