Lie...

Your nervousness overtakes you almost instantly...

"What?! No Sam... You're my best friend... Why would I do anything that might ruin that?" You say, instantly regretting your decision as you lie through your teeth...

Sam looks visibly relieved at your words however...

"Thank god... I was afraid you might've... Felt otherwise..." She tells you...

The words hit you like a train to the gut, instantly making you feel almost nausous...

"Besides... I... Can I tell you a secret?" She says nervously...

"You can tell me anything Sam..." You respond, still reeling from the loss...

"I... Think I might be gay..." She tells you...

The words almost send you reeling as you understand that you've lost her...

"W...why do you say that?" You ask, digging for info but trying to seem empathectic...

"Well.... I never really got along with any boys... Except for you of course! And... Well... I'm going to sound stupid for saying this right after the question I just asked but... You were kind of the only boy I ever had a crush on... But now I know that you don't feel that way I can't help but think of all the girls who have been there for me... Like your sister for instance... Sarah has always been really nice to me and I think about her alot... More than might be considered... Normal I guess..."

You almost pass out... Your heart is tearing it's self in two as she talks... Your gut is in knots and your body just wants to break down and die...

Not only did she have a crush on you and you ended up turning her down, but she likes your fucking sister?!?

"KILL ME NOW GOD JUST END IT!!!!!" You scream in you mind, scratching amd punching at the mental fabric that holds your emotions together...

"I...I'm glad you can tell me that..." You say, your voice deflated and full of defeat...

"I'm glad I can too John... I swear it's like everytime I see her something just wells up in me... I find myself staring at her... Her..." She tells you, her voice droning out as if she is considering her words...

"Sorry John" she says with a giggle... "I guess you don't really want to hear about your sister huh?" She asks, playfully naive of how you're feeling inside...