You don't feel like winner, but...

Although you can't move a muscle, you did it. Somehow you survived this day. But you know that you were really close to losing. You need to be stronger, more prepared, because next time...it is possible that next time you won't hold on. And you still have three days ahead of you, so Gavin will have many opportunities to try to break you. And you know that he will do his best.