Madison keeps my secret

My emotions are so churned up now because the way that I see the world is being changed irrevocably. I thought that Kaitlyn was the only one for me. Now I am not so sure. I used to think that Becca was my enemy. That came into question when I found out that Becca had been acting mean because her parents were getting divorce and because of the way they neglected her. I think that she was lashing out at people so she could hurt them before they hurt her. Now that I know that Becca was not acting mean simply for the fun of it, I want to be her friend. If the wild dream I just had is any indication, I might want more from Becca. I might want her as a girlfriend.

But what about Kaitlyn? Is my relationship with her over? I have had problems with her recently, but are they worth breaking up with her? Although, I cannot lead Kaitlyn on if I decide that I want Becca. That would be mean. I am so scared to have that talk with Kaitlyn because I am afraid that she will get so mad at me that she will not want to be my friend. Kaitlyn was my very first friend at Hartfeld. I don't think that I could take it if I lost my best friend completely. I think this is a possibility because Kaitlyn can be a bit volatile at times.

I was sleeping in the same bed as Becca, but all of those questions caused me to run away from Becca and collide right smack into her best friend Madison. She has been helping me for the last few minutes. Madison loaned me one of her teddy bears to get me to stop crying. Madison and I were just about to talk about my problem when Becca knocked on Madison's door because she was looking for me. I shake my head left and right so much that I am starting to get a cramp in my neck. Fortunately, Madison took the hint.

"She's not here," Madison lied while locking her door and watching through the peephole in case Becca didn't buy her story.

"Are you sure?" Becca questioned. "I thought I heard Portia bump into you."

"She must have gone someplace else," Madison debated.

"I hope she didn't go walking in the dark alone," Becca whined.

"Look, I am sure that you will be able to talk to Portia tomorrow," Madison reasoned. "There is nothing that you can do but go to bed."

"Okay," Becca sighed while going back to her room.

Madison kept looking through the peephole until she saw her friend disappear back into her room. She then turned to me.

"Do you want to tell me why I just lied to my best friend?" Madison wondered.

I open and close my mouth because I was deciding what I wanted to say. I then look at Madison sternly.

"You have to promise me that you won't tell anybody what I am going to tell you!" I demanded.

"Pinkie swear!" Madison agreed while extending her pinkie so I could join it with my own.

I want to tell Madison my problem, but I am still having trouble putting words together.

"Maybe there is an easier way," Madison suggested.

"What?" I asked.

"When I was a kid, I was a member of the Nancy Drew fan club," Madison revealed. "I have read a lot of those books and I love solving mysteries. I will guess your problem and you can tell me if I'm right."

"Go ahead," I dared.

"When I got up for a snack, I heard you screaming in Becca's room," Madison began. "When someone screams like that in the middle of the night, it usually means there is a prowler or that person had a dream. Since there are no windows in Becca's room and Becca was not screaming as well, it probably means that you had a dream."

My eyes start to get a little wider because it seems that Madison is really going to solve my mystery. It makes me wonder if she has aspirations of being a police detective. I don't know what is going to happen when Madison finishes solving my mystery. It will either make me feel better or it will cause me to start crying again.

"Since it looks like that you would rather kiss Lord Voldemort than talk to Becca right now, it probably means that you dreamed about her," Madison went on.

Madison stops to think for a few seconds and I start to tense up because I know what is coming next.

"Did you have a sex dream about Becca?" Madison guesses.

"Well... well done Nancy Drew," I **** out. "You solved the case."

"Wow!" Madison proclaims while leaning back against the wall.

"Tell me about it!" I wheeze while letting out two more tears.

"Don't you think that you are making too much of this?" Madison debates while taking a tissue and wiping the tears from my face.

"I feel like that I have cheated on Kaitlyn!" I sobbed.