Disgrace

I clean myself off with a towel. I cry silently to myself. I don't have the guts to go downstairs, but i know i need to make an appearance. So i go back and one of his friends asks me what happened and i can't get myself to tell him.

I look at my attacker and i think the friend knows. I go back to my room. Soon enough my door opens again and its my crush checking in on me again. He sits next to me and holds me saying nothing. We sit in silence for a while until i turn and face him.

He asks me if he could do anything to help to which i say love me the right way. He looks surprised as i kiss him softly. I tell him i made moves on him outside hoping he would come up to my room. And he finally came.

He kisses me back and we start making out and touching each other everywhere. I get on top of him and slide off his pants revealing his much larher bulge. He still looks nervous.

I want this to happen. It will make me feel better. Then i start sucking and kissing him down near his crotch. I start stroking and sucking faster and faster. Then i take off my clothes and sit on top of him. I start grinding and riding him slowly.

As i keep going i start thinking to myself is there something wrong with me that i cam have sex so soon after getting violated like that? I put it to the back of my mind and keep doing my thing.