Internal Reminiscence

Viola pressed the button and stood back, watching the elevator door slide and close in. As the soft whirring sound rang through with the occasional jingle for each floor it passed, she felt her hands grow sweaty as unsettling thoughts began to set in. Reality is so weird, one day you're talking badly about the neighbor next door who won't shut up at night, the next day he's the baby daddy.

Am I sure it's Robin's? Yea, I'm definitely sure. Haven't had any action in a long time until he came along, or more so until I did. Yea, come to think of it I went to his place, we were at the backyard and he was banging on rocks. It had an odd name to it, I don't recall at the moment but he looked cute the way he was sweating and how his arms looked. Using that hammer of his, ugh why did I have to be attracted to him?

Next thing I know, I'm in a threesome throuple relationship. We went from teasing to showing to joining. It's been weeks since I first found out, now Lauren knows too. That's a good thing, this secret as been irritating me for some time. Trying to put on a face, he has that smile and aura surrounding him that just makes me feel warm inside. I don't know how else to explain it, he just feels.... safe, I guess. She does too, I can't believe I got to live that experience being wedged between two loving people... both of them way over my age of course!

I must be insane.

Looking down, she placed a hand on her tummy and listened.

I don't know what to expect, there won't be movement for a while. Suddenly I see myself back in middle school, yelling ew with everyone else during sexual education. Gross, boys and girls do what? I'd never do that! It made me laugh, thinking of what I would do when I was younger. Mommy's little girl.

That's right, what would Mom say? I never even told her about us, how could I? It's not exactly a normal relationship I think, it doesn't feel like a normal one to me anyway. I remember seeing her so tired early in the morning, I would take the bus as soon as I was old enough. Every morning just get up, make my own breakfast, I was a lousy cook so often I would have cereal, then as I passed by the living room she would be zonked at the couch. Two jobs, multiple shifts, and any free time she had was spent with me. I so wish I paid more attention to how she did it.

Wait, why would I think of that? It's not like they'll leave, I saw how she reacted. She was cautious but definitely not panicking. I think, I think he would be surprised for sure but... he has two daughters. Who aren't too far from me in age, in fact we might be closer in age then I am to mom and dad... geez, this is all so hard to explain to mom.

Patting her tummy, Viola smiled.

Yes, I'm nervous as hell. Yes, I do have second thoughts but here I am. Here we are, another day to start and back on the same job that has kept me stable for a few years. And after work, I get to see them again, and now she knows. In a matter of time, he will too.

And then... then we'll figure this out.

I hope.

Ding!

The elevator doors opened with Viola stepping through and catching Gary and Stacey smiling and waving at her.

"Hey, good to see ya again V!"

Viola smiled. "Hey Stace, Gary, what's up?"