I need release

Suki was enjoying the attention, far more then she'd gotten the past few months from her husband. Even though he was her son, the touch of a grown man, the gentleness how his hand touched her neck. She did lean in to her son, taking a sip before she sighed, "It's not that easy. I mean, it is that easy, but it's not that easy. Your father is way too busy with work to have an evening alone with me, let alone a weekend." She leaned into Alex a bit more, the gin was hitting her hard, partly the stress of the last few days, the lack of food in her stomach, and the touch of her stepson only made it worse, or better depending on perspective. "I sometimes wonder Alex, where a girl's breaking point is? Where she says fuck it, and goes off to cheat on her husband. Some days, some days it's crossed my mind, he's away often enough, I go out of town on trips as I wish, easy enough just to sneak away with a guy for an evening or the weekend."

Alex pulled her closer as she confessed. "No... Mom...you, you just can't..some stranger, you have no idea where he has been, or what complications his offer may entail." He had not yet told her an affair was a bad idea. "No..you Love Dad and that is clear, but he is just not ....there...for you...is he..at times. You just need an outlet, a way to escape, maybe a toy, or some fantasy erotica in a book...." He reached passed her to put down his drink, and as he did the side of his neck was exposed to Suki. His own fresh from the shower scent of slight spice.

Suki placed her glass down as her son pulled her close, telling her she couldn't, not with a stranger, some man who might have more on his mind then just romancing her. "He's rarely there Alex." she admitted, "He's never around, and I've tried toys, tried books, even tried watching some porn. I just ... I need the real thing." She caught a whiff of his shower gel, the clean scent of his body fresh from a shower earlier. Thoughts crossed her mind, desires, lusts, forbidden as she'd raised him, been his mother after his real mother had walked out on him. She couldn't though, couldn't sleep with her own son. She was almost in tears by now, "How then Alex. How do I get what I crave?"