Go home and try to collect your thoughts.

When I got home I set down the pizza and just ponder I don't know what going with me today. It is like my brain wants me to do a certain set of commands and I have to follow it.

I ugh, I just want to get this day over with already. I quickly bite down on some pizza and get changed into my work outfit. Basic suit and tie, I get my belongs and head to my car.

Driving there was peaceful built I couldn't shake this weird feeling I'm having. This was weird and new, I never once had those types of thoughts. I just keep to myself and just stick to the background.

When I arrive at my office I just ignore everyone. I just block them out it's like a loop for me. A never-ending loop, why should I care to talk to people. When people do I just don't pay attention to what they are saying.

I just nod along.

I'm just going to screw it up. I can barely hold onto a conversation. The best way to describe me is as a massive introvert. I even eat lunch by myself in my cubicle.

I wasn't always like this. I used to be sociable and carefree, but ever since the fall...

I have never been the same.

I let out a sigh and fidget with a desk toy that I have. A pendulum, that swings back and forth. Watching it go, just to distract me.