'She' doesn't need to

“No” you say “That’s fine. So …”

“… is there sex in Heaven?” she finishes for you smiling cutely “Yes and no. As souls and spirits we do not procreate and so that aspect is no longer necessary, or even possible. As for the intimacy and pleasure aspects it is unnecessary to engage in the sexual act in order to experience them, at a level higher than would be possible for mortals. The lightest touch is all that is needed, but some people enjoy the act and so participate in it with others. The result is the same.”

“O.k.” you say and, looking around, you realize that a couple that you thought were simply whispering to each other have begun kissing and touching each other intimately. You continue watching as they entwine together, wrapping themselves in each other and kissing each other deeply. Perhaps once you would have felt guilty or ashamed watching this but now you do not as you know that what is happening is ‘lovemaking’ more pure than could ever be possible between physical people, with neither the biological drive to procreate nor the selfish desire for one’s own pleasure to adulterate it. What you are watching, in fact, is a display of everything that made you enjoy sex while alive and suddenly feels fills you with a need for …

… Light… Love… Beauty … fill you … and for a moment you understand what it is to be an angel. The angel said ‘she’ was not female but now you know how even thinking in those terms would be an impediment to these feelings…

… And just as suddenly as they came they recede, but while you think you should feel empty you know that had it gone on any longer you would have lost yourself in it.

You look around and see the angel stepping back from you. It looks embarrassed and sad. “Sorry” it says “I shouldn’t have done that but you needed to connect with someone and …”

“Don’t apologise” you say “That was wonderful. I’ve never felt…”

She smiles sadly “Thank you, but you do not understand. It is forbidden for angels to know mortal feelings and understand what it is to be mortal. WE cannot handle it and now I understand why… I love you John. Not as an angel should but as a mortal and I want to be with you as a mortal …”

As you watch the angel shifts into the most attractive person you have ever imagined moves toward you and begins to make love to you.