"No, not at all..."

"...{if Cuck=1}I think I liked it this way, actually. You doing it on your own, me not being able to do a thing about it{else}I just wish you had said something sooner, we could have talked it through{endif}..." you finish.

"Really?" Alice asks, through the shower curtain. "You {if Cuck=0}would have been okay with it{else}want me to do things like this{endif}?"

You think for a moment, the dull haze of jealousy, anger, humiliation, and concern turning into a wave of post-orgasm endorphins. "Yeah," you admit, "as long as it's just sex".

"How...how did it feel?" Alice asks, curiously.

"I..." you say haltingly, not sure where to begin. You explain to her how it felt: the rush of jealousy, fear, and worry, the anger, the feeling in the pit of your stomach and your wooziness, the undercurrent of eroticism, and the intensity of it all that, just for a short time, completely upended your world. You finish off, saying, "{if Cuck=1}...I liked it, a lot{else}I'm just not sure how to feel about all that, yet{endif}".

"Wow," Alice says after a minute, "I didn't realize it would make you feel that way. But...{if Cuck=1}I'm glad you liked it".{else}I hope there was something in there that was...good?"

You admit, "I'd be lying if there wasn't".{endif}

The quiet conversation dies down for a minute. You work up the courage to ask her the question that matters, "do you plan to do this again?"

Alice is quiet in the shower for a long time. Finally, she speaks, "...{if Cuck=1}yeah, I'm going to{else}I'll make sure to let you know first and make sure it's okay{endif}".

You think for a moment, and say, "okay, just be safe about it from now on. No more crazy hook-ups in clubs, all right?"

Alice says, "{if Cuck=1}maybe{else}all right{endif}. I found a dating site for this sort of thing...I'm going to sign up for it tomorrow, since I know you're okay with it."

"Okay," you say. "After...all this tonight, I'm drained and need to sleep. I have work tomorrow." You stand up from the toilet, and put the lid back up. "Don't stay up too late," you add.

"I won't," Alice says. "I love you".

"I love you too," you say. You go to the bedroom, lay down, and fall asleep before Alice joins you. She sleeps through the morning, when you get up and get ready for work. Finally, during midday, she texts you and mentions the website, and that she's started a conversation with a nice man who is part of a swinger couple. Alice doesn't mention anything more about it during the week, and for the time being that seems to be the end of it.